Pathos (2012)

Last year I was dating this guy
I mean we only went on this one date
I didn’t like him really
but
I remember we kissed by the river at midnight
and he said the most incredible things
he told me he’d been with a woman for four years
but he’d never felt as close to her
as he felt to me

and this
ahh
this was early on in the evening
after we’d only had dinner 
and

I met up with him again after that
strictlly so I could tell him
I didn’t want to see him again 

and we went for a walk around the park
after an awkward conversation about beggars
realising we had different attitudes
towards economic inequality
knowing we’d never kiss again

and I remember
he was very sweet
it seemed special, somehow

but then very quickly
I stopped thinking about him
he didn’t mean anything to me at all really
now when I think of him all i feel is

pathos.
 
now when you say to me
you don’t want to see me again
you say to me
we’re incompatible
I find it impossible

because
you see I have been waiting a long time
for someone like you
many years even
waiting to feel close to someone
who can talk about beggars
with feeling.